Sunday, October 3, 2010
Is it the case whereby too many commitments that have diluted my care for the people around me? Or could it be that I am just too ignorant of my surroundings.
It has been a subtle, but sure struggle of mine since, I guess, this year. Taking up a CCA that I didn't have the passion didn't really help. I am strectched from many sides, and perhaps I do need to take a look and evaluate how much I should serve.
To those that I should have cared, and that I have not been attending to your needs, I give you my most sincere apology.
It sucks to be in the position of responsibility when you are expected to care, and you just can't meet your own expectation, and end up feeling the guilt.
Is it a sign of an end of a season? Ask God
a great brother reminded me of this.
Luke 10:38-42 (New International Version)
At the Home of Martha and Mary
38As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. 40But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, "Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!"
41"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, 42but only one thing is needed.[a] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her."
God,
would you please provide guidance? I don't want to lean on my own understanding, but in the great chaos of the surroundings, your still small voice has been covered. God... Magnify yourself.
When things don't go according to how I expected it to be, God, may you show me Your way, instead of my way.
God, help me to care for the people around me. Help me to be more effecient.
Growing up sucks, but God, I have no choice, so I can only ask you to be with me.
Amen
AmenedIn the name of Jesus;
in the name of Jesus;
10:38 PM
